well everything's been known... what is about to happen right now?... im scared... i wish i cant make the time goes faster and fix this to being able to be right by her side.... im so sad cos i cant even go toher home and hugh her tight as i used to do... i dont want to eat even feeling so hungry... i just cant feel good with out her, she's everything to me (8)... off course im wondering how does she feels, but we cant even speak quiet...
i want to be next to her and being able to share the whole time by her side, bieng manage to hold her hand and gets her closer to me and kiss her... damn... this is the worst summer i ever lived...i just want it to end quickly...

perhaps in two or three weeks we will share a few moments alone and can speak about this and laugh... i fucking really hope so!!!.... this is getting me tired.. i dont want to get out... dont wat to see any friend and go to training... evrything is careless for me... everything except her....

such a anniversary... today we got 20 months toguether...

(8)as i close my eyes... i felling im sleeping away.. i ignore u (8)